Nikki Bella has admitted that it would "kill" her to see former boyfriend John Cena move on with someone else.
The Bella twin made the confession on the finale of Total Bellas as she and her sister Brie Bella visited Napa Valley, California for the first time since her relationship with the part-time WWE superstar ended last year.
The pair were supposed to get married in Napa Valley but things apparently went sour before they could pull it off and a six-year relationship would ultimately go down the drain.
As such, the Bella twin's visit to Napa brought back some sad memories.
“This is the first time I’ve been back in Napa since my big breakup and I just immediately get all those memories, but, a part of me is like okay Nicole, now you have to make new memories,” she said on the show.
“I think that’s why I was crying so much yesterday. I feel like it was the first time I just fully was starting my true grieving and healing process,” she says. The two broke up in July 2018 after staying 6 years together.
Nikki has already moved on and has been casually dating her former Dancing with the Stars partner Artem Chigvintsev since January, but she says it would still hurt her terribly if she were to see Cena with another woman.
“No matter what, the next time I see him with someone it’s going to kill me,” she admitted. “I still have a long way to go. But honestly, I’m ready for a new me. I need it. You know what I feel like I need to do? I need to start living as if I don’t care whether it’s my ex or anyone else watching me and afraid to hurt their feelings.”
What This Means
Despite moving on herself, it's understandable that Nikki would hurt to see her former partner with someone else - they spent six years together, after all.
Cena, meanwhile, is not scheduled to feature at WrestleMania 35 next month although it is still hoped that he will replace Baron Corbin for Kurt Angle's farewell match.